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Every day I learn and realize insights from various people in this world. Those insights help me a bit for my depression.  The insight that I've realized now that I like and miss my old self a lot who is very happy and sometimes scares of creepy stories. My new self is opposite with my old self. If only I could be like before.  My new self whenever I liked or had a crush on a man, she often felt very optimism; however, she became heartbroken because of unrequited love. Now I realize depression has its good side since I feel blank and maybe I can't realize those touching feelings I used to feel anymore. The feeling of being rejected from your loved ones is very painful. It feels like I am overprotected by myself. I am not sure that it is a good thing. I hope one day there will be someone will change this griefful insight of mine.  Recently I have weird feelings toward a man that is very far away from me. I often dream about him. I tried to disregard, but the dream with

Depression in The Way I Understand

Depression is a mental disorder that occurs when a person constantly feels sad all the time. Sadness and hopelessness from many days, months, and years combine into depression without knowing. That's my own description I can describe in my own word since I have ever experienced depression. Sometimes I feel like I can see a girl crying in my mind. I feel like that girl may experience something terrible and has mental breakdown, so she sits there, covers her face in her hands, and crying. The strangest part is that that girl is I. I really want to come near that girl and tell her that everything will be okay; however, it's not. It seems like she's locked in the room that she can no longer get out of there. But the fact that she's confined in the room seems to protect her. There's another girl in my mind who is trying to find with a depressive monster. It's a fierce, uneasy, and endless battle with a monster.

The Letter to The Dean About The Harmful Professor

Hello the Dean, I am a student who previously enrolled in the Medical Lab technology program and currently dropped out. I am writing this letter to let you know that I want to make a formal complaint about a professor in the MLT, professor K. Firstly, I want to let you know the reason I dropped out of the program is because of the professor in the program. This professor’s behaviors are pessimistic, hopeless, and negative toward students. I have tried to solve the problems on my own; however, the consequence is not successful. She should receive disciplinary action and be terminated or rebuked for her actions. Professor K is an offensive professor. She often shouted at me when I made mistakes and when I was alone in her office and even in the lab in front of other students. The more she yelled at me, the more I made mistakes and could not focus on what I would do. Sometimes her negative actions made me feel pessimistic about myself. On October 5, 2017, I made a critical mistak